High School

CW: discussion of suicide, self harm, and eating disorders Relapse thoughts. (11-26-17) At 2:00am, the voice came back, it told me I needed to die. The voice is telling me not to tell anyone so I tell my friend I am fine. I do not miss this feeling, having my life in my hands and metal between my fingertips. You don’t understand the feeling of quiet until you stop talking and bask in loneliness. When everyone who tries to help ends up hurting you. Where the hell did my happin

This is the first collection of Teenager Years, writings transcribed from journals I kept in high school. Content Warnings include: talk of suicide, talk of self harm, and talk of eating disorders. If you or someone you know is struggling with suicidal thoughts or feelings, please refer to my references page, call 988, or call 911. There is a reason you are here. My mind wanders to perfection at night but all I see is death. You burned me so I set myself on fire. You shook me

CW: discussion of suicide, self harm, and eating disorders 09-05-2017 You are not a bad person even if I wrote you as the villain in all of my stories. You broke me but I was always cracked. A glass about to overflow and you tipped me over. I never blame any of this on you. I was already broken. I went back and told you I wanted to die, I made it real for me. I never meant to make it real. You hurt me more than ever and I may never be able to be fixed because you tried to cle